I’m needing some courage as I continue to face the challenge of settling into my new life. Perhaps I’m dealing with delayed culture shock? Or something. I’m going with it for now, choosing to believe that things will get better.
We all want certainty, don’t we? I’d like to know that my husband will get a job in the next few weeks. I’d like to be sure that I’ll do well on the counselling course I’m starting soon. I’d like to be able to tell my daughter that she will soon have a great girlfriend or two. But the fact is that none of us can be certain about anything. We don’t know how things will turn out.
And so I’m trying to rest…in the midst of all this uncertainty. I’m endeavouring just to be, to be content in the now. I’m finding it’s not easy. I’d rather be on cloud nine, ecstatic that everything in my life is perfect. I’d rather not feel like I’m under a cloud…especially when I have such clear memories of being really happy (the happiest ever) not that long ago.
I know I’ll look back on this time in the future and better understand the lessons I’m learning now. I’m choosing to believe that I’ll get through this challenging patch. I’m choosing to hope. And I’m thinking that being okay with things not feeling okay is part of growing up.
How about you? Are you in an easy patch right now? How do you get through challenging times? Do you agree with E.E. Cummings’ quote? What does it mean to you?